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As you may have guessed from my constant bitching that i have not had the ideal reentery into college the way i had hoped. it pisses me off you know how life throws the book at you and all. but this was so important and from the start it  seemed desten for failure. but i could have done more right. for 14 years i have supported my wife then we discuss things and desided it was her turn well guess what if you dont bet on you no one will. please pray for me my only salvation lies in god now. looks like this has just been a stupid last ditch effort in hummoring meyself before finding remedial life draining work...... till i die.... how ever long i can speed that up.